a boy with a grin....... :)

been awhile since my last post . 

ya, i know, you’ve been waiting with worms in your mouth!

i’m finding that God is really teaching me a lot about relying on Him and His timing in a lot of areas of my life lately…sigh, it’s not fun but i hope to shoot out the other end a better person!

at least more reliant on Him.

i have given up trying to control the future….if Ant decides to stay in the fall I guess it’s up to his mother to make it happen.

if not, it’s up to God to protect him!

anyhow, on to Ant.

thanks to the lovely Michelle V, we managed to get away for a weekend.

not the most relaxing one, fast paced visiting, eating and long hard bike rides in the rain!

i think Ant was somewhat disgruntled that he couldn’t come along.

he just doesn’t get the difference between 15 and 50 (ya, i know, i'm older than that!)

he thinks he should be included in ALL adult goings on!

fortunately he had a good time, even though he got anxious to be ‘home’ before us (thanks Michelle for going out of your way to drive him home early)

monday was a real treat as we had the entire day of nothingness.

the three of us together eating and watching movies...like i needed more food!

and he’s back to his ole self of cracking jokes and sweet talking aunty into spending time on him

we had planned on barbequing steaks on Wed night , but realized that it was Youth night and they were having a tailgate party.

i wasn't sure how he was going to take to going, but he did so without a hitch.

we call it his community hours lol

the lad just walked right into the crowd like he’d been attending for years!

the kid amazes me sometimes!

i saw a little boy, for an instant, when he came home telling us all about his antics of playing capture the flag and getting flowers from the girls and wrestling with Cole (which he assured me was all in fun, in spite of his soiled hat, and Cole was fine….right Michelle?) and his "tree homies" (something to do with playing tag)

(yes Darlene, he actually got one of his beloved hats dirty and was okay! no anger no scenes!)

yesterday he again hung at the skate park while i volunteered.

and again he patiently (on the surface anyhow lol) sat through my questioning as to ‘what kind of kids where there today, did anyone offer you drugs, do they talk about drugs…?’

he told me the one fellow he 'hangs with' there, John, has been clean for two years and that they chat lots

he said the rest of the kids were too young and their mom’s hung there too! lol

i look him in the eyes, swallow  and continue to believe

on the way home we stopped at a hair salon and he buzzed his head….he likes it. LOL

the steaks are still in the fridge and that could have been the cause of the grumpiness when I came home from worship practice last night, but today he is all his own funny selfness again!

this morning we sat on the deck and had a long conversation about a few of his choices in life and why i think some of the experiences he has had, have NOT made him older than his years like he seems to think he is they have just been unfortunate experiences and he is still just a boy

he smiles at me with that boyish grin...he knows i'm right, but he knows i only know the half of it

he is so easy to talk to and so willing to please

he shows respect and that speaks volumes to me

we are heading down to Party in the Park tonight. 

told him if he got bored we would let him go over to the skate park….not sure i’m 100% okay with this idea….will play it by ear.

i can only pray showing trust in him will return honesty to us.

so there we are, all up to date and all up in the air!

only God knows for sure what’s next!